UGH

Where will I start? Uhm.. okay. here it goes. Si ano kase, he has that "something" for me. And then he's, you know sweet, but it's unusual for me because we like to brawl with each other. And then.... Putangina, may nanliligaw sakin pero ewan ko kung matutuwa ba ko or what!!! Feeling ko ang unfair ko sakanya pag pinagpatuloy ko pa 'to! Puta, second chance na 'to! Hindi kami natuloy nung 4th yr ako dahil sa hayup na D na yan dahil di ako maka-move on sakanya! Pero he's still here kahit na nagka-girlfriend na siya na batchmate din namin. That's why I feel like I am being unfair to him dahil naman sa punyetang G na 'to na kahit minsan di man lang ako napansin at wala atang balak pansinin ako!! Yung hindi man lang niya alam kung gano ko siya kagusto at mahigit isang taon ko na siya hinihiling kay Lord at pinagbubuhusan ng efforts!!!! Deputa! Eto paaa... Feeling ko he's just bored or I was his option slash second choice slash rebound girl dahil niloko siya nung ex niya!! Langya!! Pero I know him, at alam ko kung sincere siya or hindi. Hindi pa kami pero nagakakaganto na ko, pano pa kaya if ever sagutin ko siya, baka mas mabilis pa sa wedding ni Kim Kardashian at Kris Humphries yung relationship namin dahil sa kagagahan ko! Sayang effort niya sakin if I'll stay like this.  I'm not worth his time and effort and everything. Isa pa... yung sasabihin ng iba! Ang hirap pag maliit lang yung mundong ginagalawan niyo, not literally. Pero yung group of friends niyo. Although may bagong bf na yung ex niya na niloko siya, I'm still sure that there's still a part of her na ayaw niya maging masaya yung ex niya at magpapaka-selfish muna siya. So, in the end, magagalit siya sakin at pag-uusapan ng mga friends niyang walang ginawa kundi mag-pacute at mag-babytalk kasama na din yung boyfriend niyang tropa ng ex niya! Leche. Nakakaloko! Haaaaaaayyyy! What should I do?! Hiniling ko 'to eh! But not complicated like this! Smh.