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"What our closest friends do for us is to teach us true selflessness. We learn that while we might be safer for them if we keep them out, but true friendship means letting them in. We cannot decide for them what they are willing to suffer with us and for us. While we certainly don't want to see our friends suffer. Friendship isn't about protecting each other from pain as it is about helping each other during pain." B. |
Thursday, April 18, 2013
3 days.
Monday, April 08, 2013
D.
Okaaaay. Will have a short blog dedicated to HIM. I shouldn't talking about him anymore, but I can't help it. Well, he's been a part of my life BEFORE, so no big deal.
If you read my blogpost "second <\3," he's my first heartbreak that I'm talking about. Let's call him D. I will not mention his full name for some safety. Hehe. But if you're my highschool friend, cousin, or VERY close friend, you already know who I'm talking about when I say D.
I have a lot of flings when I was in highschool. Yes. Flings, MUs, etc. Landi lang, diba? Lol. Pero good thing about it, I never have any commitments to anyone of them. We became close friends, actually. And never akong gumawa ng first move para landiin nila ko. Aminin man natin o hinde, masaya yung ganun. Puro flings lang. Pero syempre, may konting part sayo na aasa ka na sana mag-work out kahit walang commitment. That's what highschool is all about.
I met D when I was in my Junior year. He's my bestie's crush. Pinakilala niya sakin and I found out na classmate siya ng cousin ko. Ironic, isn't it? Edi we became friends. Malaking tulong din na classmate siya ng pinsan ko kasi, tuwing may lakwatsa or whatsoever, lagi ko lang excuse na kasama ko siya. D introduced me to his friends. 4 boys (which is one of the best group of boys that I love and I'l never forget haha) and 4 girls including my cousin. And did you know that 3 of the boys are also my flings before. Hahaha. Except 1 because my gf siya that time which is tropa din nila. Ewan ko bakit lakas ko maka-magnet ng boylets, eh di naman ako chix nun. Haha. So, ayun. We all became close at naging tropa na din nila ko. Lagi kaming tambay sa pacheco (only hccsians know that place mehehe) pag uwian at pag walang lakad ang pokers. Ang unang ka-fling ko nun sa tropa niya ay si *tooot* hahahaha. He courted me pero di ko siya sinagot and you know? I regret that day nung narealize kong ok pala siya. Haaay, regrets. Ok. Next is *tooooot* naging ka-MU ko siya. Kala ko nga dadating kami sa part na magkakaron na ng "something" pero biglang ewan. Lumabo bigla. Tas si *toooot* tinanong lang niya ko kung may chance, eh ex siya ng pinsan ko kaya a big NO NO. Ok pa naman sana siya, sayang. Hahaha. Kung sobrang landi ko lang edi pinatos ko na yun. Lol. And then D enters my fairytale. Sa kanilang lahat, sakanya ko nakita yung "spark" haha so highschool. We have an endearment, Honeybunch. Hahahahahaha! Lagi kaming nasa kanila pag shortened period. Inuman, you know? Haha. Alam naming may something saming dalawa at alam naming nararamdaman yun ng tropa kaya inaasar nila kami at kinukulit kung kami na daw ba. That time, we act like bf-gf pero hindi kami. May gf siya pero hinahatid niya ko samin. Hindi namin tinataksil ang gf niya. We're bestfriends that time. Pag may problema sila, sakin niya unang sinasabi. Until we found out na tina-timer siya nung girl sa 2 yrs nitong bf. Awww. Ang tanga niya pa nun kasi ayaw niyang maniwala until siya na mismo ang nakakita. I'm his comfort zone that time. His shoulders to lean on. Sobrang close na namin. Sobrang sweet niya pa. We had our first date February 2010 with the pokers, pero di pa kami nun. Naging kami a day before my JS prom when he asked me if we can make the things official. Nakaramdam din siguro. Hahaha! Dahil sobrang tagal na namin naglalandian, di ko na pinatagal pa. Oo, wala pang isang araw o isang oras niya kong niligawan. Ba't ba? Haha. We became official Feb. 20 Pinakilala niya din pala ko sa family niya nung birthday niya, Jan 19, so di pa kami nun. Kakabreak lang nila. So, it means... isa kong dakilang REBOUND girlfriend. Ouch. Pero di ko naisip yun that time kase alam kong nafall na kami parehas although mapapansin mong may part pa sakanya na nasasaktan padin siya. He even asked me to have sex on him. Like, wth do you think I am? Am I that easy-to-get-highschooler Bitch? Kahit na sabihin kong mahal ko siya, di padin ako papayag. Respeto! Ganun lang gusto ko. Pero, hindi siya manyak na tao. Ewan ko kung bakit pumasok sa isip niya yung mga bagay na yun. Syempre di ako pumayag. Kadiri kaya! Tsaka 15 lang ako nun noh. Ayoko nga maging teenage parent. Madami pa kong pangarap sa buhay. Yung magkaanak, nasa huli pa yan. Ulul siya sa part na yun. Wrong move siya. HAHA. We lasted for 3 mos only. Hindi rin nag-work out diba? Biglaan kase. We broke up for unknown reason, after kasi nung gabing yun, di na kami ulit nagusap. Nasayang lahat. Ayun yung masakit na part. Pero ganun daw talaga. Highschool life, eh? Just be happy na naramdaman ko yun kahit papano.
After nun, 4thyr na ko. Medyo naka-move on na lahat. Lalo na siya. After a month, or wala pang 1 month, eh nagka-gf kagad siya. Galing! Haha. Another rebound girl. Haha. Madami na ding nagtry manligaw sakin. Try lang, kasi di rin naman sila uubra. Ewan ko. Simula nung break-up namin, I don't like entertaining admirers anymore. Para di awkward, totropahin ko nalang sila, para cute. Mehehe. Minsan pa nga, tropa ko pa nanliligaw eh. Syempre, I'll say to them straight to the point na magttotropa kami at walang talo-talo. Hehe. Nagpatuloy din manligaw si *tooooot* sakin. Tropa ni D. One of his bestfriend. Yeah. Kaya di ko siya sinagot. Gusto ko sana kaso, ang pangit talagang tignan at pakinggan. So, we remain as close friends at I helped him to find a girfriend. I'm such a dork. Haha. Simula nung break-up, feeling ko naging man-hater na ko. Pero hindi. Sa dami ng boylets ko, man-hater pa ko ng lagay na yun? Hahaha. Ayoko lang ng relationshits. Siguro, di pa ngayon. Gusto ko na pero di pa ko ready. Kaya tinutuon ko yung oras ko sa lalaking wala namang paki. Pero at least napapansin niya ko. Hihi.
Kung bakit wala pa kong boyfriend hanggang ngayon, ayun ay dahil kay D. Pero hindi dahil may feelings pa ko sakanya. Pero dahil tumaas ang standards ko sa mga boys at natuto na ko mag-ingat. But I'm happy that he's happy now. I think she finally found a long-lasting relationship with his highschool classmate. Siya na pinakamatagal na gf ni D. Just like what he always telling me before that he got on Enrile's tv campaign, "Gusto ko, happy ka!" And yes, hopefully, I will be. :) B.
If you read my blogpost "second <\3," he's my first heartbreak that I'm talking about. Let's call him D. I will not mention his full name for some safety. Hehe. But if you're my highschool friend, cousin, or VERY close friend, you already know who I'm talking about when I say D.
I have a lot of flings when I was in highschool. Yes. Flings, MUs, etc. Landi lang, diba? Lol. Pero good thing about it, I never have any commitments to anyone of them. We became close friends, actually. And never akong gumawa ng first move para landiin nila ko. Aminin man natin o hinde, masaya yung ganun. Puro flings lang. Pero syempre, may konting part sayo na aasa ka na sana mag-work out kahit walang commitment. That's what highschool is all about.
I met D when I was in my Junior year. He's my bestie's crush. Pinakilala niya sakin and I found out na classmate siya ng cousin ko. Ironic, isn't it? Edi we became friends. Malaking tulong din na classmate siya ng pinsan ko kasi, tuwing may lakwatsa or whatsoever, lagi ko lang excuse na kasama ko siya. D introduced me to his friends. 4 boys (which is one of the best group of boys that I love and I'l never forget haha) and 4 girls including my cousin. And did you know that 3 of the boys are also my flings before. Hahaha. Except 1 because my gf siya that time which is tropa din nila. Ewan ko bakit lakas ko maka-magnet ng boylets, eh di naman ako chix nun. Haha. So, ayun. We all became close at naging tropa na din nila ko. Lagi kaming tambay sa pacheco (only hccsians know that place mehehe) pag uwian at pag walang lakad ang pokers. Ang unang ka-fling ko nun sa tropa niya ay si *tooot* hahahaha. He courted me pero di ko siya sinagot and you know? I regret that day nung narealize kong ok pala siya. Haaay, regrets. Ok. Next is *tooooot* naging ka-MU ko siya. Kala ko nga dadating kami sa part na magkakaron na ng "something" pero biglang ewan. Lumabo bigla. Tas si *toooot* tinanong lang niya ko kung may chance, eh ex siya ng pinsan ko kaya a big NO NO. Ok pa naman sana siya, sayang. Hahaha. Kung sobrang landi ko lang edi pinatos ko na yun. Lol. And then D enters my fairytale. Sa kanilang lahat, sakanya ko nakita yung "spark" haha so highschool. We have an endearment, Honeybunch. Hahahahahaha! Lagi kaming nasa kanila pag shortened period. Inuman, you know? Haha. Alam naming may something saming dalawa at alam naming nararamdaman yun ng tropa kaya inaasar nila kami at kinukulit kung kami na daw ba. That time, we act like bf-gf pero hindi kami. May gf siya pero hinahatid niya ko samin. Hindi namin tinataksil ang gf niya. We're bestfriends that time. Pag may problema sila, sakin niya unang sinasabi. Until we found out na tina-timer siya nung girl sa 2 yrs nitong bf. Awww. Ang tanga niya pa nun kasi ayaw niyang maniwala until siya na mismo ang nakakita. I'm his comfort zone that time. His shoulders to lean on. Sobrang close na namin. Sobrang sweet niya pa. We had our first date February 2010 with the pokers, pero di pa kami nun. Naging kami a day before my JS prom when he asked me if we can make the things official. Nakaramdam din siguro. Hahaha! Dahil sobrang tagal na namin naglalandian, di ko na pinatagal pa. Oo, wala pang isang araw o isang oras niya kong niligawan. Ba't ba? Haha. We became official Feb. 20 Pinakilala niya din pala ko sa family niya nung birthday niya, Jan 19, so di pa kami nun. Kakabreak lang nila. So, it means... isa kong dakilang REBOUND girlfriend. Ouch. Pero di ko naisip yun that time kase alam kong nafall na kami parehas although mapapansin mong may part pa sakanya na nasasaktan padin siya. He even asked me to have sex on him. Like, wth do you think I am? Am I that easy-to-get-highschooler Bitch? Kahit na sabihin kong mahal ko siya, di padin ako papayag. Respeto! Ganun lang gusto ko. Pero, hindi siya manyak na tao. Ewan ko kung bakit pumasok sa isip niya yung mga bagay na yun. Syempre di ako pumayag. Kadiri kaya! Tsaka 15 lang ako nun noh. Ayoko nga maging teenage parent. Madami pa kong pangarap sa buhay. Yung magkaanak, nasa huli pa yan. Ulul siya sa part na yun. Wrong move siya. HAHA. We lasted for 3 mos only. Hindi rin nag-work out diba? Biglaan kase. We broke up for unknown reason, after kasi nung gabing yun, di na kami ulit nagusap. Nasayang lahat. Ayun yung masakit na part. Pero ganun daw talaga. Highschool life, eh? Just be happy na naramdaman ko yun kahit papano.
After nun, 4thyr na ko. Medyo naka-move on na lahat. Lalo na siya. After a month, or wala pang 1 month, eh nagka-gf kagad siya. Galing! Haha. Another rebound girl. Haha. Madami na ding nagtry manligaw sakin. Try lang, kasi di rin naman sila uubra. Ewan ko. Simula nung break-up namin, I don't like entertaining admirers anymore. Para di awkward, totropahin ko nalang sila, para cute. Mehehe. Minsan pa nga, tropa ko pa nanliligaw eh. Syempre, I'll say to them straight to the point na magttotropa kami at walang talo-talo. Hehe. Nagpatuloy din manligaw si *tooooot* sakin. Tropa ni D. One of his bestfriend. Yeah. Kaya di ko siya sinagot. Gusto ko sana kaso, ang pangit talagang tignan at pakinggan. So, we remain as close friends at I helped him to find a girfriend. I'm such a dork. Haha. Simula nung break-up, feeling ko naging man-hater na ko. Pero hindi. Sa dami ng boylets ko, man-hater pa ko ng lagay na yun? Hahaha. Ayoko lang ng relationshits. Siguro, di pa ngayon. Gusto ko na pero di pa ko ready. Kaya tinutuon ko yung oras ko sa lalaking wala namang paki. Pero at least napapansin niya ko. Hihi.
Kung bakit wala pa kong boyfriend hanggang ngayon, ayun ay dahil kay D. Pero hindi dahil may feelings pa ko sakanya. Pero dahil tumaas ang standards ko sa mga boys at natuto na ko mag-ingat. But I'm happy that he's happy now. I think she finally found a long-lasting relationship with his highschool classmate. Siya na pinakamatagal na gf ni D. Just like what he always telling me before that he got on Enrile's tv campaign, "Gusto ko, happy ka!" And yes, hopefully, I will be. :) B.
Monday, April 01, 2013
Shuffled.
Titanium
by David Guetta ft Sia
You shout it loud, but I can't hear the words you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
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