"Hey there, it's me here. I just wanted to write something to you. I wanted to tell you I love you. I wanted to tell you that although you think that I don't know you exist, I do. I know all those nights you've stayed up to get me to notice you. I know about all the arguments you've had with your parents to see me. I know. I thank you for this. For all the ridiculous amounts of money you've spent to see me, and it's insane. I know about all the friends you've made through me and I think this is the most beautiful thing in the world. In fact darling, I think you are the most beautiful girl in the world. I love you more than life and I want you to know that the hugs you wish you could share with me, I want to share with you too. I wish I could be with you to spare all those hours you've sat restless for something as minute as a wave from me. As much as I love you my darling, there is something I need to tell you. I want to share with you that I'm in love. I'm in love with a girl and she is not you. I love you too though, I will always love you too. I would not be where I am without you. But this girl, she makes my heart flutter. You do too. But she is the one for me. I know this shatters your heart, and there is probably a tear escaping your pretty oval eye but I'm hoping you can muster up a smile for me darling. Because my happiness is your happiness, isn't it? This girl is the one for me. I've said that but I truly mean it. One day, there will be someone who makes you feel the same way I do. He will make your heart flutter and your cheeks go bright red just like they do for me. But there will be a deep sinking feeling in your stomach of true love. Darling don't you feel that way about me, do you? I'm sorry if I said I love you too and got your hopes up, but I really do love you. I know he will mean more than you than I ever did. Please find him and embrace him. I will always love you darling, and I know you will do the same. I hope you find the one for you who can stay up until 3 in the morning talking to you in the dark. Because I've found the one I can do this with. You deserve it too. You're more than just a fan to me, darling. You too are my sunshine."

- your sunshine

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Where it all starts

Ganto kasi yun. Alam niyo ba kung bakit ko naging crushie si crushie?

Remember classmate ko siya sa Basketball class, diba? One time, Dini-dribble ko yung isang ball na kulay black na siya tas mabaho. Eh, crushie is holding another ball. Much better ball than what I am holding. Tas bigla siyang nagsalita...

(Flashback)
*Dini-dribble ko yung bola kasi may drill kami that time*
Crushie: "Wag mo na gamitin yan. Mabaho yan eh. Eto nalang gamitin mo." *Sabay abot nung ball na hawak niya*
Me: "Huh?" *nashock tas medyo lutang*
Me: "Ah, hehe. Sige." *sabay talikod tas smile w matching kilig* HAHAHA

Ayun nga. Dun nagsimula ang lahat. I start to call him crushie that time kasi nga I didn't know his name pa. Plus the fact na napa-elibs niya ko w his basketball skills. Bihira lang ako ma-elibs ng ganun ah! Iba siya. Basta! Kinilig ako eh. Ba't ba! :")